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This small book was wrtten in a cabin two hours from Melbourne in
This small book was wrtten in a cabin two hours from Melbourne in
This small book was wrtten in a cabin two hours from Melbourne in
This small book was wrtten in a cabin two hours from Melbourne in
This small book was wrtten in a cabin two hours from Melbourne in
This small book was wrtten in a cabin two hours from Melbourne in
This small book was wrtten in a cabin two hours from Melbourne in
country Victoria, Australia. At the time it was not writtern as a book
country Victoria, Australia. At the time it was not writtern as a book
country Victoria, Australia. At the time it was not writtern as a book
country Victoria, Australia. At the time it was not writtern as a book
country Victoria, Australia. At the time it was not writtern as a book
country Victoria, Australia. At the time it was not writtern as a book
country Victoria, Australia. At the time it was not writtern as a book
but as a one page poems. This was all my typewriter and my mind
but as a one page poems. This was all my typewriter and my mind
but as a one page poems. This was all my typewriter and my mind
but as a one page poems. This was all my typewriter and my mind
but as a one page poems. This was all my typewriter and my mind
but as a one page poems. This was all my typewriter and my mind
but as a one page poems. This was all my typewriter and my mind
could allow at the time. I had found myself there after my world had
could allow at the time. I had found myself there after my world had
could allow at the time. I had found myself there after my world had
could allow at the time. I had found myself there after my world had
could allow at the time. I had found myself there after my world had
could allow at the time. I had found myself there after my world had
could allow at the time. I had found myself there after my world had
somersaulted - I had lost my home, my income and any physcial
somersaulted - I had lost my home, my income and any physcial
somersaulted - I had lost my home, my income and any physcial
somersaulted - I had lost my home, my income and any physcial
somersaulted - I had lost my home, my income and any physcial
somersaulted - I had lost my home, my income and any physcial
somersaulted - I had lost my home, my income and any physcial
resting place for my feet and had removed myself from the circles of
resting place for my feet and had removed myself from the circles of
resting place for my feet and had removed myself from the circles of
resting place for my feet and had removed myself from the circles of
resting place for my feet and had removed myself from the circles of
resting place for my feet and had removed myself from the circles of
resting place for my feet and had removed myself from the circles of
my previous social existence. Prior to this I had recognised that all
my previous social existence. Prior to this I had recognised that all
my previous social existence. Prior to this I had recognised that all
my previous social existence. Prior to this I had recognised that all
my previous social existence. Prior to this I had recognised that all
my previous social existence. Prior to this I had recognised that all
my previous social existence. Prior to this I had recognised that all
resting places come with their own delusion and so had embraced
resting places come with their own delusion and so had embraced
resting places come with their own delusion and so had embraced
resting places come with their own delusion and so had embraced
resting places come with their own delusion and so had embraced
resting places come with their own delusion and so had embraced
resting places come with their own delusion and so had embraced
the path of unknowing. In both sudden and in gradual ways my
the path of unknowing. In both sudden and in gradual ways my
the path of unknowing. In both sudden and in gradual ways my
the path of unknowing. In both sudden and in gradual ways my
the path of unknowing. In both sudden and in gradual ways my
the path of unknowing. In both sudden and in gradual ways my
the path of unknowing. In both sudden and in gradual ways my
identity had shifted completely outside of personality, soul, true self,
identity had shifted completely outside of personality, soul, true self,
identity had shifted completely outside of personality, soul, true self,
identity had shifted completely outside of personality, soul, true self,
identity had shifted completely outside of personality, soul, true self,
identity had shifted completely outside of personality, soul, true self,
identity had shifted completely outside of personality, soul, true self,
etc. into that stateless state that can’t be named. I had found through
etc. into that stateless state that can’t be named. I had found through
etc. into that stateless state that can’t be named. I had found through
etc. into that stateless state that can’t be named. I had found through
etc. into that stateless state that can’t be named. I had found through
etc. into that stateless state that can’t be named. I had found through
etc. into that stateless state that can’t be named. I had found through
spirituality and relgiion the value of such a shift but could not attri-
spirituality and relgiion the value of such a shift but could not attri-
spirituality and relgiion the value of such a shift but could not attri-
spirituality and relgiion the value of such a shift but could not attri-
spirituality and relgiion the value of such a shift but could not attri-
spirituality and relgiion the value of such a shift but could not attri-
spirituality and relgiion the value of such a shift but could not attri-
bute it to any particular practice so henceforth decided to spend the
bute it to any particular practice so henceforth decided to spend the
bute it to any particular practice so henceforth decided to spend the
bute it to any particular practice so henceforth decided to spend the
bute it to any particular practice so henceforth decided to spend the
bute it to any particular practice so henceforth decided to spend the
bute it to any particular practice so henceforth decided to spend the
next few years in an enormous amount of silence, a silence unkept. I
next few years in an enormous amount of silence, a silence unkept. I
next few years in an enormous amount of silence, a silence unkept. I
next few years in an enormous amount of silence, a silence unkept. I
next few years in an enormous amount of silence, a silence unkept. I
next few years in an enormous amount of silence, a silence unkept. I
next few years in an enormous amount of silence, a silence unkept. I
travelled to Europe, America and India and read hunderds of books
travelled to Europe, America and India and read hunderds of books
travelled to Europe, America and India and read hunderds of books
travelled to Europe, America and India and read hunderds of books
travelled to Europe, America and India and read hunderds of books
travelled to Europe, America and India and read hunderds of books
travelled to Europe, America and India and read hunderds of books
finding confirmation in those places of this identity shift and with
finding confirmation in those places of this identity shift and with
finding confirmation in those places of this identity shift and with
finding confirmation in those places of this identity shift and with
finding confirmation in those places of this identity shift and with
finding confirmation in those places of this identity shift and with
finding confirmation in those places of this identity shift and with
it an enormous amount of diverse and interesting ways that delu-
it an enormous amount of diverse and interesting ways that delu-
it an enormous amount of diverse and interesting ways that delu-
it an enormous amount of diverse and interesting ways that delu-
it an enormous amount of diverse and interesting ways that delu-
it an enormous amount of diverse and interesting ways that delu-
it an enormous amount of diverse and interesting ways that delu-
sion happens on the path. Importantly, although at the time a little
sion happens on the path. Importantly, although at the time a little
sion happens on the path. Importantly, although at the time a little
sion happens on the path. Importantly, although at the time a little
sion happens on the path. Importantly, although at the time a little
sion happens on the path. Importantly, although at the time a little
sion happens on the path. Importantly, although at the time a little
dis-orienting, was the tendency of the groups involved with spiritual
dis-orienting, was the tendency of the groups involved with spiritual
dis-orienting, was the tendency of the groups involved with spiritual
dis-orienting, was the tendency of the groups involved with spiritual
dis-orienting, was the tendency of the groups involved with spiritual
dis-orienting, was the tendency of the groups involved with spiritual
dis-orienting, was the tendency of the groups involved with spiritual
practice - whether new age, traditional or scientific, to contract a
practice - whether new age, traditional or scientific, to contract a
practice - whether new age, traditional or scientific, to contract a
practice - whether new age, traditional or scientific, to contract a
practice - whether new age, traditional or scientific, to contract a
practice - whether new age, traditional or scientific, to contract a
practice - whether new age, traditional or scientific, to contract a
new identity around the groups that were speaking of no identity.
new identity around the groups that were speaking of no identity.
new identity around the groups that were speaking of no identity.
new identity around the groups that were speaking of no identity.
new identity around the groups that were speaking of no identity.
new identity around the groups that were speaking of no identity.
new identity around the groups that were speaking of no identity.
Our world, through this divison in our mind’s, has created much
Our world, through this divison in our mind’s, has created much
Our world, through this divison in our mind’s, has created much
Our world, through this divison in our mind’s, has created much
Our world, through this divison in our mind’s, has created much
Our world, through this divison in our mind’s, has created much
Our world, through this divison in our mind’s, has created much
war and atrocity, but I was surprised to find it in groups speaking
war and atrocity, but I was surprised to find it in groups speaking
war and atrocity, but I was surprised to find it in groups speaking
war and atrocity, but I was surprised to find it in groups speaking
war and atrocity, but I was surprised to find it in groups speaking
war and atrocity, but I was surprised to find it in groups speaking
war and atrocity, but I was surprised to find it in groups speaking
of oneness or non-duality, mindfulness or meditation. Actually it
of oneness or non-duality, mindfulness or meditation. Actually it
of oneness or non-duality, mindfulness or meditation. Actually it
of oneness or non-duality, mindfulness or meditation. Actually it
of oneness or non-duality, mindfulness or meditation. Actually it
of oneness or non-duality, mindfulness or meditation. Actually it
of oneness or non-duality, mindfulness or meditation. Actually it
seemed stronger there as if the very closeness to the dissolution of
seemed stronger there as if the very closeness to the dissolution of
seemed stronger there as if the very closeness to the dissolution of
seemed stronger there as if the very closeness to the dissolution of
seemed stronger there as if the very closeness to the dissolution of
seemed stronger there as if the very closeness to the dissolution of
seemed stronger there as if the very closeness to the dissolution of
that separateness strengthened it - creating a new movment away
that separateness strengthened it - creating a new movment away
that separateness strengthened it - creating a new movment away
that separateness strengthened it - creating a new movment away
that separateness strengthened it - creating a new movment away
that separateness strengthened it - creating a new movment away
that separateness strengthened it - creating a new movment away
from that aloneness that is not alone. I have always been moved
from that aloneness that is not alone. I have always been moved
from that aloneness that is not alone. I have always been moved
from that aloneness that is not alone. I have always been moved
from that aloneness that is not alone. I have always been moved
from that aloneness that is not alone. I have always been moved
from that aloneness that is not alone. I have always been moved
towards that aloneness where I find the monotony and solitude the
towards that aloneness where I find the monotony and solitude the
towards that aloneness where I find the monotony and solitude the
towards that aloneness where I find the monotony and solitude the
towards that aloneness where I find the monotony and solitude the
towards that aloneness where I find the monotony and solitude the
towards that aloneness where I find the monotony and solitude the
artist in me desires and so would not be surprised if this we-ness is
artist in me desires and so would not be surprised if this we-ness is
artist in me desires and so would not be surprised if this we-ness is
artist in me desires and so would not be surprised if this we-ness is
artist in me desires and so would not be surprised if this we-ness is
artist in me desires and so would not be surprised if this we-ness is
artist in me desires and so would not be surprised if this we-ness is
presnting something splendid that, suffice to say, I have missed.
presnting something splendid that, suffice to say, I have missed.
presnting something splendid that, suffice to say, I have missed.
presnting something splendid that, suffice to say, I have missed.
presnting something splendid that, suffice to say, I have missed.
presnting something splendid that, suffice to say, I have missed.
presnting something splendid that, suffice to say, I have missed.
These poems glorify that aloneness, giving voice to it and finding
These poems glorify that aloneness, giving voice to it and finding
These poems glorify that aloneness, giving voice to it and finding
These poems glorify that aloneness, giving voice to it and finding
These poems glorify that aloneness, giving voice to it and finding
These poems glorify that aloneness, giving voice to it and finding
These poems glorify that aloneness, giving voice to it and finding
it as nevery lonely and always one-with. An aloneness that exists
it as nevery lonely and always one-with. An aloneness that exists
it as nevery lonely and always one-with. An aloneness that exists
it as nevery lonely and always one-with. An aloneness that exists
it as nevery lonely and always one-with. An aloneness that exists
it as nevery lonely and always one-with. An aloneness that exists
it as nevery lonely and always one-with. An aloneness that exists
outside of we-ness but fully loves and embraces it. It recognises the
outside of we-ness but fully loves and embraces it. It recognises the
outside of we-ness but fully loves and embraces it. It recognises the
outside of we-ness but fully loves and embraces it. It recognises the
outside of we-ness but fully loves and embraces it. It recognises the
outside of we-ness but fully loves and embraces it. It recognises the
outside of we-ness but fully loves and embraces it. It recognises the
superflous nature of the experience of ‘oneness’ or connection as
superflous nature of the experience of ‘oneness’ or connection as
superflous nature of the experience of ‘oneness’ or connection as
superflous nature of the experience of ‘oneness’ or connection as
superflous nature of the experience of ‘oneness’ or connection as
superflous nature of the experience of ‘oneness’ or connection as
superflous nature of the experience of ‘oneness’ or connection as
always comingand going within the space of its own self. It sees both
always comingand going within the space of its own self. It sees both
always comingand going within the space of its own self. It sees both
always comingand going within the space of its own self. It sees both
always comingand going within the space of its own self. It sees both
always comingand going within the space of its own self. It sees both
always comingand going within the space of its own self. It sees both
the dilemna and non-dilemna of the mind and it’s collective mani-
the dilemna and non-dilemna of the mind and it’s collective mani-
the dilemna and non-dilemna of the mind and it’s collective mani-
the dilemna and non-dilemna of the mind and it’s collective mani-
the dilemna and non-dilemna of the mind and it’s collective mani-
the dilemna and non-dilemna of the mind and it’s collective mani-
the dilemna and non-dilemna of the mind and it’s collective mani-
festations and recognises all that exists is of immense important to
festations and recognises all that exists is of immense important to
festations and recognises all that exists is of immense important to
festations and recognises all that exists is of immense important to
festations and recognises all that exists is of immense important to
festations and recognises all that exists is of immense important to
festations and recognises all that exists is of immense important to
some stage of evolution. If it could be hummed it’s bass note would
some stage of evolution. If it could be hummed it’s bass note would
some stage of evolution. If it could be hummed it’s bass note would
some stage of evolution. If it could be hummed it’s bass note would
some stage of evolution. If it could be hummed it’s bass note would
some stage of evolution. If it could be hummed it’s bass note would
some stage of evolution. If it could be hummed it’s bass note would
say every thing has a truth. It’s melody and harmony would create
say every thing has a truth. It’s melody and harmony would create
say every thing has a truth. It’s melody and harmony would create
say every thing has a truth. It’s melody and harmony would create
say every thing has a truth. It’s melody and harmony would create
say every thing has a truth. It’s melody and harmony would create
say every thing has a truth. It’s melody and harmony would create
some discord allowing the ‘truth’ left unsaid to be revealed in your
some discord allowing the ‘truth’ left unsaid to be revealed in your
some discord allowing the ‘truth’ left unsaid to be revealed in your
some discord allowing the ‘truth’ left unsaid to be revealed in your
some discord allowing the ‘truth’ left unsaid to be revealed in your
some discord allowing the ‘truth’ left unsaid to be revealed in your
some discord allowing the ‘truth’ left unsaid to be revealed in your
own being. As I read over these I hear the rascal nature of these
own being. As I read over these I hear the rascal nature of these
own being. As I read over these I hear the rascal nature of these
own being. As I read over these I hear the rascal nature of these
own being. As I read over these I hear the rascal nature of these
own being. As I read over these I hear the rascal nature of these
own being. As I read over these I hear the rascal nature of these
words and these words. To call them poetry is it’s own interpreta-
words and these words. To call them poetry is it’s own interpreta-
words and these words. To call them poetry is it’s own interpreta-
words and these words. To call them poetry is it’s own interpreta-
words and these words. To call them poetry is it’s own interpreta-
words and these words. To call them poetry is it’s own interpreta-
words and these words. To call them poetry is it’s own interpreta-
tion but if we consider the purpose of poetry, in it’s deepest sense ,
tion but if we consider the purpose of poetry, in it’s deepest sense ,
tion but if we consider the purpose of poetry, in it’s deepest sense ,
tion but if we consider the purpose of poetry, in it’s deepest sense ,
tion but if we consider the purpose of poetry, in it’s deepest sense ,
tion but if we consider the purpose of poetry, in it’s deepest sense ,
tion but if we consider the purpose of poetry, in it’s deepest sense ,
to be that which illicits the soul or the heart of heart’s then I believe
to be that which illicits the soul or the heart of heart’s then I believe
to be that which illicits the soul or the heart of heart’s then I believe
to be that which illicits the soul or the heart of heart’s then I believe
to be that which illicits the soul or the heart of heart’s then I believe
to be that which illicits the soul or the heart of heart’s then I believe
to be that which illicits the soul or the heart of heart’s then I believe
it can be named so. Suffice to say, it is my only fear that words such
it can be named so. Suffice to say, it is my only fear that words such
it can be named so. Suffice to say, it is my only fear that words such
it can be named so. Suffice to say, it is my only fear that words such
it can be named so. Suffice to say, it is my only fear that words such
it can be named so. Suffice to say, it is my only fear that words such
it can be named so. Suffice to say, it is my only fear that words such
as these may find their home amongst the mess of purposeless and
as these may find their home amongst the mess of purposeless and
as these may find their home amongst the mess of purposeless and
as these may find their home amongst the mess of purposeless and
as these may find their home amongst the mess of purposeless and
as these may find their home amongst the mess of purposeless and
as these may find their home amongst the mess of purposeless and
meaningless we call today’s postmodern art. For the soul that is ripe
meaningless we call today’s postmodern art. For the soul that is ripe
meaningless we call today’s postmodern art. For the soul that is ripe
meaningless we call today’s postmodern art. For the soul that is ripe
meaningless we call today’s postmodern art. For the soul that is ripe
meaningless we call today’s postmodern art. For the soul that is ripe
meaningless we call today’s postmodern art. For the soul that is ripe
and ready these will hopefully confirm the freedom that is inherent
and ready these will hopefully confirm the freedom that is inherent
and ready these will hopefully confirm the freedom that is inherent
and ready these will hopefully confirm the freedom that is inherent
and ready these will hopefully confirm the freedom that is inherent
and ready these will hopefully confirm the freedom that is inherent
and ready these will hopefully confirm the freedom that is inherent
and for the mind that is stuck meaningless will confirm. Here you
and for the mind that is stuck meaningless will confirm. Here you
and for the mind that is stuck meaningless will confirm. Here you
and for the mind that is stuck meaningless will confirm. Here you
and for the mind that is stuck meaningless will confirm. Here you
and for the mind that is stuck meaningless will confirm. Here you
and for the mind that is stuck meaningless will confirm. Here you
won’t find the overly marketed devotional love songs of the great
won’t find the overly marketed devotional love songs of the great
won’t find the overly marketed devotional love songs of the great
won’t find the overly marketed devotional love songs of the great
won’t find the overly marketed devotional love songs of the great
won’t find the overly marketed devotional love songs of the great
won’t find the overly marketed devotional love songs of the great
middle eastern mystics but a love that is quiet and yet always with
middle eastern mystics but a love that is quiet and yet always with
middle eastern mystics but a love that is quiet and yet always with
middle eastern mystics but a love that is quiet and yet always with
middle eastern mystics but a love that is quiet and yet always with
middle eastern mystics but a love that is quiet and yet always with
middle eastern mystics but a love that is quiet and yet always with
that great humour that knows that it does not know.
that great humour that knows that it does not know.
that great humour that knows that it does not know.
that great humour that knows that it does not know.
that great humour that knows that it does not know.
that great humour that knows that it does not know.
that great humour that knows that it does not know.
I wrote these quietly and very slowly as the words appeared, often
I wrote these quietly and very slowly as the words appeared, often
I wrote these quietly and very slowly as the words appeared, often
I wrote these quietly and very slowly as the words appeared, often
I wrote these quietly and very slowly as the words appeared, often
I wrote these quietly and very slowly as the words appeared, often
I wrote these quietly and very slowly as the words appeared, often
seemingly disconnected from each other but as I read them they are
seemingly disconnected from each other but as I read them they are
seemingly disconnected from each other but as I read them they are
seemingly disconnected from each other but as I read them they are
seemingly disconnected from each other but as I read them they are
seemingly disconnected from each other but as I read them they are
seemingly disconnected from each other but as I read them they are
read fast, like a rap song so approach them as you must. More im-
read fast, like a rap song so approach them as you must. More im-
read fast, like a rap song so approach them as you must. More im-
read fast, like a rap song so approach them as you must. More im-
read fast, like a rap song so approach them as you must. More im-
read fast, like a rap song so approach them as you must. More im-
read fast, like a rap song so approach them as you must. More im-
portantly is the presence from which they arrive and are heard from,
portantly is the presence from which they arrive and are heard from,
portantly is the presence from which they arrive and are heard from,
portantly is the presence from which they arrive and are heard from,
portantly is the presence from which they arrive and are heard from,
portantly is the presence from which they arrive and are heard from,
portantly is the presence from which they arrive and are heard from,
the understanding of them is here most secondary. They are best
the understanding of them is here most secondary. They are best
the understanding of them is here most secondary. They are best
the understanding of them is here most secondary. They are best
the understanding of them is here most secondary. They are best
the understanding of them is here most secondary. They are best
the understanding of them is here most secondary. They are best
used as pointers to your own self but use them as you must. Above
used as pointers to your own self but use them as you must. Above
used as pointers to your own self but use them as you must. Above
used as pointers to your own self but use them as you must. Above
used as pointers to your own self but use them as you must. Above
used as pointers to your own self but use them as you must. Above
used as pointers to your own self but use them as you must. Above
all though, love and do what you will.
all though, love and do what you will.
all though, love and do what you will.
all though, love and do what you will.
all though, love and do what you will.
all though, love and do what you will.
all though, love and do what you will.
Matthew JonMatthew Jonn
Matthew Jonn
Matthew Jonn
Matthew Jonn
Matthew Jonn
Matthew Jonn
Austarlia 2015
Austarlia 2015
Austarlia 2015
Austarlia 2015
Austarlia 2015
Austarlia 2015
Ode To The Cloud
Watered down,
the machines of my reliance,
psycholgically remembered,
the anesthetics of my indolence,
I cannot and I will not,
I have not, I am not,
I am knotted and free,
released of my functioning,
finally smoothed,
adhered adhesively to my burrows of which
there is no furrow,
the majesty of my imcompetence,
the grace of my inability,
the asbolute lack of knowing,
and yet there are magicians,
with functions, doing love,
above and beyond the layman with woods, waters,
electronic accessories,
calendars of decityful miners,
for time, time tim,
is the beat of space,
nicked from laybrinths,
of voidy lessoners,
lessons, lessons,
and sparks of wrathful loving,
compassionate composites of
integrated intuitive,
isolated, fragmented, demented,
bent and spent,
and really that lack of content,
and those accumulations,
fructose in the moat,
covered in a coat,
and we can,
and we will,
and we might,
and we don’t,
and we don’t,
and the beggar and the king,
swaggering from my sling,
here is unknowing,
the radiant composite beyond composition,
here is unknowing,
the cloud of, the cloud of.
Mind Not The Wings Of The Butterfly
Utterly devotional,
without hope or submission,
Flapped wings,
without the lies of intention,
Lacking in profundity,
Hollowed of the tree,
existing as the skin of my bark,
Nothing more to be added,
and carried away by the mist of,
subtraction, division is not lost,
division is not tossed.
I am crossed, cross,
standing aloof, pinned, pricked,
choosing my own crucifixion,
never ending,
a submission with permission,
Bound by the boundlessness that sees,
my fiery birth,
bound by the bordeom that relieves my ancient death,
Inwardly submitting,
without the nonsense of the smitten,
Of in, of out, of we,
Of troubles, of struggles,
Those upwardly glancing fluorescent
blue skies, clouds of indignation,
And they say love is all there is,
and I say put down your weapons of proection,
Put dow this calculation,
Stop building conflicted nations,
Mind not the wings of the butterfly,
Mind not the wings of the butterfly.
Beloved Ant
Beloved ant,
who graced away the minion of my mightiness,
who lay me bare as a winter oak,
who delighted upon dwindling leaves,
who gave delight among the broken branch,
I bow without spine,
turn away without leaving,
turn towards a still grieving,
always towards, always towards,
not arriving closes I cannot move towards,
I am already and yet closer, closer.
You pour love into the emptiness of cups,
hold emptiness as a cup of your love,
make fantasies so we can see you,
end fantasies so we can be you,
I must make a dream so I can write you,
a dream so I can love you,
a dream so I can suffer you,
a dream so I can lose you.
Beloved ant,
who graced away all word so there was no beginning,
Beloved ants,
who graced awy all no words so there could be an end,
ants, ants, ants,
where is they, where is they,
I cannot find where you are not.
amongst houses of slaughter,
amongst wars over dirt,
amongst children newly born,
of forests untouched,
here, here, I cannot be lost, nor you to me,
but deeper, deeper, beyond, beyond,
before ant and ants, prior to oaks and winters,
before rest and wake, before dream and reality,
empty of emptiness, empty of love,
no seeing, no being, no clearing, no freeing,
the black hole before holes,
I cannot be lost or found,
neither one nor many,
broken shards of infinite universes,
drift amongst seeds of simple trees,
and there is nothing of which nothing is lost,
my language falters like a train for it’s steam.
Beloved ant,
who graced away the minion of my mightiness.
Twiddle, Twindle
A, e, i, o, u, some hisses,
Tongues twiddling upon teeth,
What use are the in the purpose,
Of the purposeless,
Of non-expression,
Twaddle me not tumble-sore,
The darkest age is the age of the word on light,
Take flight, take flight,
And then there was the wordless,
All wordied, dirtied, flirted and sun-dried,
Explanations building nations,
Your nation of the one,
Built on saucy indifference,
Masked as embracing contingence,
I take away my words,
and you plunge,
cess pool deeping into the avenues,
upon which you have built your intolerance,
following, following, following,
hollowing, hollowing, hollowing,
of all that is good and bad,
it is just on stand,
let go of your mothers hand,
trip up your fathers stand,
don’t land, don’t land,
oh the disturbance must be absolute,
a tree with real fruit,
tooting, fro-ing, dining, reminding,
clays of ever sweet reminders of your indifference,
a chosen few, a chosen few words,
to wash away a challenge,
come mincer, robin, dill,
make a sound, make a sound,
and a humbling twindle belies the ears of the infinitely
inexpressible soundless, toothless, loveless mound,
and then there was silence.
The Great Break
Leaves sprayed upon,
Leaving graves open,
Reduced, caboosed,
Opened, let loose,
loosened by the seeing of it,
Tightened by the freeing of it,
The un-contacted mate,
The un-contacracted fate,
In leaving there is retrieving,
Parting your way,
Others may have their say,
And keep Quiet!
The angry lover rides alone,
In his chariot made of the unknown substance,
without substance, the most substantial,
Letters litterin the lions loneliness,
Hold Up! The great bear is drunk,
Falling upon you,
his hug is contriving, confining,
the silver lining.
Hold Up! The angry love,
makes his way to the place of sub-ordinance,
Wound down by his winding up,
Met where noon can be met,
Absent of helping,
Preseting the presenting,
Understanding is the end of your aches,
Ignorance is the bliss of the great break.
The Unopposed Life
Life without an opposite,
birth and death oppose,
life stands alone,
amongst built up nests,
interpenetrating, disintegrating,
making and breaking,
rebuilidng and re-yielding,
immense and empty,
unchanging of colourness,
coloured with all shades,
once broken, never repaired,
not knowing its brokennesss,
what brokenness, what knowing,
of the infinite colours that,
reside between points,
between birth and deaths,
between beginnings and ends,
between points in time,
of experience in minds,
outside births, deaths,
outside minds, time, ends, starts,
outside and inside,
what outside?
what inside?
life without an opposite,
boxless, penniless, ignorant,
of time, of mind, of birth, death,
life is not related, life is
all that is, all that is is life,
appearing as brith, death, mmind time,
love, hate pain, this, that,
interralted, interpenetrated, inter, inter, inter,
into just this or JUST THIS,
life without an opposite,
just this, also that,
one lives, many lives, uncontrived,
ever newly tainted and painted,
tinted, sintered, bucked and preened,
as life not composite,
holes in the compost,
of airs new breathed,
and then it was here,
and then it was that it was never not here,
and then it was there,
and it was seen that it was never not there,
and then here, there, were nowehere,
and no here was everywhere,
and life had an opposite,
life was a composite,
life without an opposite.
I, I, I
Upon arriving written,
completed and emptied,
loved and admonished,
danced and downward,
into and out of red flowered,
unmysterious and better,
equipped without equipment,
without past, emptied of then,
and loved of here, we
presently collapse into the
danced and downward
inward turning which belies
the opposite of the outward,
which forgets celebration,
and with it the disintegration,
until that red flowered
unmysteriousness remains,
forgotten of humid timidness,
tumbling with gentle drips,
upon yellowed leaves,
without hope of nourishment,
a circumfrence of rectangles,
smooth edges, smothered and smothered,
blended, merged, before merging,
disappearing emergence,
that complete lack of emergency,
a loving urgency of stillness,
not uttered, not bought nor sold,
and presently, presently,
kwoth, kwoth, kwoth, kwoth,
in, out, in, out,
round, round, up, down, frown, clown,
constricted illusions,
expansive fusions,
nothis is favoured, everything is flavoured,
yes, yes, everything is flavoured,
i, i, i, nothing is favoured,
and there is favouring,
there is flavouring,
nourishing and crushing,
i, i, nothing is, is favoured,
i.
The Cob To Which I Am Corn
Ambitious and forgetful,
owing nothing and foerever indebted,
riding upon that which is ridden,
memories of productivity,
pin pricked and
piles upon piles of feathery hair,
blown awy in the instant of th elack of insistence,
and lit up
only to be choked, soothed
cathartically gathered
round, down, upwardly emptied,
forgotten and mistreasured,
unencumbered once more,
blown silently with a gush
through a gash,
spplit open and hollowed,
sucked empty, sizzling, sizzling
lights of the light,
once more life,
once more the forest...
of my covenant is absent,
mindedly fickle,
trays of immaculate plastic fruits,
the depth of a leech,
sucked and there is something,
sucked and there is someone,
but only by cancerously cobbling by the clutching
of the cob to which I am corn,
remaining forever born,
stifled by the clock,
stifled by the dark,
deadened by the dread of it
such that I cannot tread on it,
round and round circling spirals of wheels supposedly turning,
writings on the water,
paintings in the sand,
here i do not stand.
A Quiet That Is Kept
Falling down cliffs of rocky mind,
Sitting by pools of adherent life,
Planes of walks, walks of plains,
Upon language we waste time,
Time forever wasted is no time at all,
barren and hardy, calloused contractions,
of language too frquent heard,
Mechanical sabbaticals,
furies and sounds buried by masks of silence,
Keep quiet, keep quiet,
But a quiet that is kept rings and ratttles,
caws and screeches, pollutes and teaches,
Preaches and preaches, preachers and teachers,
Silence isn’t silence,
Keeping can’t be kept,
Freedom cannot be had,
Freedom cannot be lost,
Falling and sitting and walking and talking,
sabbaticals and sounds, the quiet and the keeping,
Mind and life and planes of time and timeless,
to-ing, fro-ing, without going,
There IS and then there is quiet, quiet is IS
and IS is quiet.
Keep what, you cannot hold on,
always falling, always sitting,
of dirty roads well trodden lie paths unspoken,
Freedom cannot be had,
Freedom cannot be lost.
The Price
That slighted, slanted
leaf tumbling down windy tunnels,
to grounds where disappearance
becomes inherent emergence,
Forgotten statues
of empty ideals
Sculpted along the cracks of confusion,
Murdered where the clarity
of the immense unknowing
beginning forever,
innocent like the valley,
forever creating mountains,
climbing mountains,
arriving at hilltops and finding they
are valleys,
Still there is walking,
Leaves continue falling
Grounds continue disappearing,
Except that groundless ground,
Higher and lower then grounds,
Is the ground, valley, mountain,
Hand between thighs,
empty looking eyes,
Buddas at the gas pump,
Yes buddhas at the gas pump,
Can that buddha do a fist pump?
Can that buddha touch my love hump?
Keep quiet, keep quiet,
We are noble at our gas pumps,
We discuss the petrol price,
Sniffing won’t suffice,
The price, the price, the price,
The spirit of a head lice,
Of and the buddha of all fist pump,
Expresses only love humps,
We are serving, we are serving, we are serving,
only swerving, only swerving, only swerving,
Roses gobbled down new age neandathals
with patience of a parrot,
ever chasing the carrot,
And the leaves continue falling,
Confused is at once fused,
Suddenly we cannot choose.
Around & Absent
Around me,
building foundations,
on rocky soils,
toiling and toiling,
somehow spoiling and spoiling,
absent of things,
absent of protection,
absent of company,
absent of love, of spirituality,
absent of jobs, of activities,
absent of foundations,
absolutely groundless,
accompanied by silence,
always that silence,
the secret is silence,
it is all that silence,
Around me,
building large nations,
on soggy spoils,
much love and admiration,
to devalue, to demoralise,
this quiet is somehow toiling
toiling without spoiling,
empty of condemnation,
wrathful and compassionate,
angry at it all,
like temples that had been spoiled,
the day is a cheap beer,
marked, marked, marked,
officially superficial,
resisted without resistance,
Around me,
around me,
around me,
within me.
The Unkept Lawn
Of whistling unkept lawn,
Tiptoeing in the winds,
Winds of contented discontent,
blowing brances of radiation,
from sliding sorcery,
absent of seriousness,
a life lead to impress,
all manicured in dress,
claims of ignornatlessness,
never bothering to test,
here is the darkest age,
forget pollution,
forget poverty,
forget climate,
forget economies,
forget wars and peace,
forget life and death,
please, please, please,
unbutton your dresss,
let me be unimpressed,
open your legs,
let me reject your jest,
open your heart,
let me call you a tart,
forget absences and presences,
foget mechanics and the mechanical,
forget the surface and the soil,
let me be unimpressed when you unbutton your dress,
let me reject your jest when you open your legs,
you are a tart when you open your heart,
be with reality and throw me in the river,
lay me off the back of which I am burden,
lay me offthe back of which I am burdened,
And let the winds tiptoe over the unkept lawn.
Sweat-Filled Landscape
Upon that sweat-filled landscape,
broken wide open,
Thoughts dwindle of futures past,
present and robust,
calloused and grundied,
overlooked and yet vitality shows a puff,
to be seeing fully,
is to stop all this prancing,
subtraction of the limp,
walking away from that which was turned,
holding, holding, holding,
with arms of hollow bones,
caressing, caressing, caressing,
the fingers od dancing spiders,
and held up, forgotten the monastic prior,
palmed off the hypocritical contemplation,
absolute boundary and indignation,
but without frustration,
no boundary,
a free human is a dead being,
a dead being is a dead human being,
try as you might your understanding will fail you,
try as you might transmission is still missing,
attain the non-knowledge and knowledge will still hinder you,
stop reading words like this,
stop visiting forests like that,
it is here, it is here, it is here,
look and find and you have lost it,
when here becomes somewhere it loses its nowhere,
tear, tear, tear it all down,
be as child, including the frown,
what can be held does no holding,
what can be told is absent of telling,
Upon that sweat-filled landscape.
To Take Home
Tightened thighs,
Flexed and transparently unturned,
The voice of that lost number,
Prepared by the open mouth of a dog cooling,
Spoken by the lips of indecision,
Beneath the pit of unknowing,
An ankle crushed beneath the bones of absence,
All mating, making, faking,
A grand choking of a gentle loafing between the burrows
of innocence,
Take me home great almighty and complete other,
While there is other home will slide between the fingers of a ...
Take me home for I have found the most important thing ...
While there is such importance home will be away ...
Take me home for I have taken care of business, I am ready for That ...
While there is the end to ends taking home will not happen,
Take me home for I realise there is no home,
And upon rascals of the ignoration,
Swallowing tongues of discrimination,
In the name of reconciliation,
Stop, stop, stop,
And it has been lost,
Strive, strive, strive,
And it has been lost,
To be as the middle means to forget about being as the middle,
This is the voice of that lost number,
Listen to the quiet of sound,
Listen, Listen.
The Simple Majesty
Majestic and simple,
The head turns but there is no turning,
Sitting upon the branch,
of my own existence,
I am the tree,
rooted and free,
wings of whisipers,
Overwhelming love whimpers,
I am that and yet,
I am not equal to that,
Not lessened nor equaled,
Free to will,
absent of the personal,
Drinking from the sap of the supposed undermining,
Not find and hence again arriving,
No trying,
Leaves far from lying,
Seated on the mighty lap,
Encased in a bag of bones pretending to be home,
Here is not my abode,
I am a continous flow,
Seated on a mighty lap, the might lap,
A constant urinaion, a joyful masturbation,
Earthy in my descent,
World in my ascent,
At once, burly my covenant,
Freed from the ties of non-existence,
Freed from the ties of absolute existence,
Humble and healthy, healthier, healthier,
And yet I remain,
Always remainging, complete utter refraining,
Total and absolute engaging,
Stood still,
This total aloneness,
This total uniting,
Majestic and simple,
utterly humble,
no human fumble.
F O R T H O S E W H O H A V E F O U N D
F O R T H O S E W H O A R E F I N D I N G
F O R T H O S E W H O A R E
F O R T H O S E W H O A R E N O T
Matthew Jonn